Life isnt easy, Some of us go through some of the worst things we never ever thought we would. I have been thinking about Connor alot lately. And how much I miss him, I am not sure if some of you realize how much I think about him. He is in my thoughts ALL the time. Through my daily life I think about him. I wish I would have had more time to be his mother. I have NEVER lost anything that I couldnt replace...I lost him and I couldnt fix it. I wanted to raise him, I wanted to see him walk and go to school. I wanted to hear him tell me he loved me. I NEVER got that, I feel he did though, because he definetly knew who Chris and I were and he would smile at us all the time. I know I am babbling but I miss him so much. I hope he knows I would have done anything to have had the chance to say Goodbye, I hope he knows how much I love him and how much I wish he would have stayed with us a little longer.
Mommy loves you Sweet Boy!!
